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Tuesday, 23 September 2008
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Yes.. I am the kind that can't sit quietly in my CAGE! So Wat!!!!
What have I been up to for the past few months? lol... I was hating the world... I was complaining.. and I was angry of everything in my life.... well I am always that angry... lol.. angry of things that can be done in a different way and a better way.... angry that I am not in-charge of my own life....
Yes it was sickening.. it was pretty much like waking up to a person that I never was... a person that I hate to be... a person that was hanging on the last thread... a person that is so whinny that everyone just hate to SEE MY FACE....
I am NEVER EVER THAT WEAK... and I am always the rebel... and always the nutty that runs around and tells the world to STUFF IT and work my ass off to make my life... my plans... and my work to work! I just used to making things WORK.....
So in short.. I wasn't myself the whole time I was back "home".... and my confidence was wearing out as everyday passes by.... 7 months.. and it was all plainly UNBEARABLE!
All I had in my head every minute of my life was... GOD... I need to find myself...and I just can't live with this body without a soul...or I should say.. with a broken soul.... and I was ready to get myself THE HELL OUT THERE!
The NOT-SO-MUCH of a prayer worked....lol.. on my 23rd birthday... My family in NZ came to my rescue... I had just resigned from my glamorous job of working with big names celebrity... and was still feeling sorry that I did...since I did plenty of great work with some great people....and had some of the most tiring fun I've ever had....
in short! I was given a free ticket to fly out... BACK HOME..(NZ).. to where I feel that I am in my own skins..
With less than a week on hand... I packed my bags... with essentials only... and made it a lil over 20KGS...lol... and had like 2 hand carry.... my laptop and documents... and jackets...lol
I hopped on to the flight and hoping that it wouldn't be another year before I land myself on the same spott again.....i felt sorry to my parents that I didn't felt like I was in ONE piece.....
so here I go... I got my butt out of my actual home and was looking forward being "home" again...
on the 20th of July... I was here! WITHOUT MY LUGGAGE!... so i was stink... from over 16 hours of traveling.... in my jeans.... and sneakers... still punk as ever... my family here was glad that i was back... especially the lil Ethan... (he started yelling out BON BON BON the minute he saw me at the airport) and cuddles from Aunty Paik and Drew Drew were so comforting... and yet I felt sorry that my decisions will hurt my parents so much...
The next day.... HEYYYY... my stuff was sent to the door step of my Aunt's place. I had my stuff and I was ready to party... lots of catching up with my greatest friends from my kiwi life... Jane was the first to schedule for coffee, then Jo and Eric... I was looking after my cousins while my aunt and uncle and lil Ethan were in the middle east.
1st..... I got into a crash....driving in my Uncle's Hyundai Santa Fe.....
The Mazda 3 that smack into the bumper was in worst condition.. the car is fixed but I have no idea how the insurance have come to a conclusion of how's fault it was.....
When my aunt and uncle got back.... it was a bit stressful but hey they didn't put any pressure on me... thank GOD and I knew how lucky I was... (not because the crash alone ..but also the fact that they step in and give me a hand whenever I need one and when it is really critical)
I spent weeks working on my contract work.... enjoy hanging out with friends (that's Jane and I in the pic...) visited a few places that I love... cafes, pizzarias, korean and jap food... and pretty much have a cup of coffee a day and collected stamps for each until I was entitled for the 11th Cup (which is free...!)
This was where everything ended... and so this was everything shld start again... I went to the Coffee House Cafe with Jo on the last day I was in Christchurch... Shaun (my eldest cousin) came along and we had a blast... and the snow helped to make the experience even better... (imagine waking up at 7 on a snowing saturday morning and hopping on to the bus ..and walking in the snow to the cafe....and having big savoury breakfast and coffee)
Babah makes everything in live possible... and makes life more.... hmmm I shld say... it seems like my future was endless since baby's future is pretty much endless
things weren't working... and since I got back I can pretty much say that stuff it and I'm gonna make it happen! here comes a riot! and I am going to take charge!
Thursday, 10 April 2008
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Work and Life in KL~ Concert event management....
Yes I've got a job... well I'm a full time Marketing Communication Executive for Star Planet now... an Event Management and Concert Promoter company in Malaysia.... and yes it sounds flashy and yes it is not an easy job to do.... It has been only a month and I've been give the opportunity to work with some of the greatest people in this field.
My first concert production in life is Nicholas Teo's <From Now On> Malaysia Concert which ended 1 & 1/2 week ago.... it was cool to have seen the whole production and collaborations from everyone that was setting this event up. Here we go!
My first business card.... Sounds flashy to be named as Marketing Communication Executive when in fact I have to do everything from paperworks, marketing planning, telemarketing, event branding setups, event media control and information desk.. to delivering meals to the artist and dancers' rooms.
Dad gave me my first card holder.... and yes it helps as giving out business card is a must when it comes down to dealing with the media... and yes i miss my darling brother a lot..so his photo sits in my card holder *wink*.... dad's and ah b's photos too but mum didn't give me hers... hmmm i shld remind her when i go home this weekend....
Here we go... this is the preparation work that we do before the concert....
I was directing and monitoring the general workers in setting up all sponsors' banners in the stadium...hard work and takes up a lot of time to just tie them up nicely...XXX came in and decided to do it her way, and so we had to re-adjust the display back and forth....
Carrie said she shld act as if she was working hard when I decided to snap some photos... she is the cute one among my colleagues... too bad that she's only an intern.... gonna miss her and tracy, and bryan when they leave the company after completing their industrial training.
The stage was on final touch up...and Nicholas was at the backstage preparing for rehersals...
there u go.. the dancers and Nicholas is rehersing ..non-full costume rehersal....
and yes.. we started 10 am in the morning at stadium putra, Buki Jalil... and worked until it was dark...day to night preping for the concert.
Nicholas full costume rehersal..... u see this is the fun... we work hard and enjoy the show while we work.....and the best thing was... we get to see the WHOLE thing......
Carrie and I was having a short rest up at the royal box... where all the special guest will be sitting on the concert day... it was really cool to chat and watch the show without the crowd.... Carrie is a fun, smart, and a cute person that I've come to know at work.
ok... if u are paying 80 bucks for the ticket... this is wat'll u'll see...lol TINYYYYYYYYY...
Production stage.... all the audio control sits there....
Rehersals went on and on.....
see.... this is wat I meant... I was in the royal box.. then the cheap seatings then the middle class seats.... the view was not that bad from the middle class seats....
hmmmmm long day for all of us and Nicholas.....
and it goes on until 9pm
Back in the operation room, from left sitting on the table... the very cool Samantha... (Sam, from event production and operation), Bryan (fun, mr nice guy intern), Carrie (cute intern) and Ricky at the bottom (general worker).
from the far left in blue, Patrick (Project manager, event operation head and basically the brain), Brian (Eva's bf that was there to help) and Eva from admn & hr, financial control.
My all access pass...meaning... I can be wherever I want lol..... From backstage, operation room, control platform, artist room, dancers' room... basically everywhere in the stadium...with official pass! Cool thing to have huh! lol
All ready to return to the hotel for a good rest
See... this is where I spend two nights... the room right opposite Nicholas's and next door to his manager's...lol.. a very nice suite in Palace of the Golden Horses.... Dignity Suite (4th floor, special suites).... best of all... it was free!
On the move.....my good pair of sneakers and all my stuff!
Warner Music... guess what's in it? our concert tees... a gift from warner to all of us...
all the CD covers with Nicholas' signatures... I wonder how many fans will be fighting over this...
Cool branding set up by our team... the super size banner!
Canopy setups for the sponsors! see there's a lot that we have to do.....!
Concert Day 29th March! with the crowd....I was positioned at the VVIP area to manage the media and ushers...
Sunday 30th March... we didn't go to bed until 4am.... well the thing is... after the concert... we were back to the hotel (palace of the golden horses...) attending and more like working through the night on the celebration party... by that time... I was too busy and forgot to snap some pics...
The next morning.... We (Kee, Sam and Jasmine and I) slept till 11am.. and funny enough to have Nicholas' manager in our room while we were all in pj... and snored like a pig ( her room was next to ours and our room were connected..and so...) when I stepped out the room to sort out some stuff with the fans club president at the lobby, Nicholas' sister was at Nicholas' door-step.. carrying Issac (Nicholas' baby nephew)... Issac was crying... and so I said... poor baby! and he was waving to me... I didn't know that was Nic's nephew..lol until Jasmine told me afterwards....
Checking out!.. Lan Bo the dance cordinator and his dancers as well as the Taiwan crew were checking out... and so it was the good-bye time for all of us.... Lan Bo was pretty funny when he started waving so hard in the bus while everyone else was keeping their cool and waved a lil....so I solluted the crew and wave to say goodbye...
After that, Jasmine, Kee + Kee's BF (another Brian), Sam and I went out for a good lunch which was on Kee.... and Patrick came to join later.. it was so fun and tiring.... we had a good lunch and chatted until we felt that we really need some sleep... and we parted... Jasmine dropped me at Sentul LRT and it was a plain Sunday for me after all the excitement! I love this part of my job! I saw wat I've always wanted to be and it was an experience that assured me that.... I'll learn a lot from this! Love it!
Tuesday, 01 April 2008
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I'm back "home"
Maybe it is not a huge thing for everyone, but to me, leaving NZ was like leaving a real home of mine... where I was really shaped into the person I am today... and also culturally... I'm more like Kiwi in terms of mentality and the way I appoarch things... but hell yea I'm a Malaysian still... it is just that I'm not as up to date to the happenings back "home"...
Now... I supposed many will think that it is pretty rude for me to use "" on the word home (refering to Malaysia's home)... the thing is... my family had moved into a place that I've never stayed before nor seen it after the renovation... I only saw it when my parents was still deciding if they were getting it...
Well, another point is.. I did not have possessions in the so call home of mine.... In comparison, my life in Malaysia was close to Null other than family and old friends and memories... I was and am still struggling with my Malay...that instead of tengah hari (afternoon) .. I said Matari (sun) which made my maid laughed until she dropped...lol
The first night home.. I was sleeping with Ah b (my younger sister)...and we went to send my old friend Sureen off the next morning at 5am..then we had a good breakfast (yum char)...just the two of us...
Then instead of sharing a room with my sis, I moved into Ah boy's room...I was missing him a lot and it was so weird to go "home" when he is not around....
Ian's two lonely cans of coke collection!
All my babies arrive around 2 months after the shipping date......it as so good to see 13 boxes of them! from cd collections, book collections, to all my certs and notes....it was their first trip to Malaysia to some.....
I took my baby to the room.....it was like christmas..lol
look at that... i've stuffed some into the wardrobe... (6 A4 boxes to be precise)
Got my beloved baby (subwoofer and speakers system) all set up!
And added my own coke collections to Ah boy's shelf
Now......they are no longer lonely!
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Life after NZ.....
Two weeks after my arrival.... it was CNY... it has been 2 years that I've skipped CNY and so...I was a lil out of tune when it comes down to customs...
It was fun though... all of my cousiesss from both of my parents' family were very happy to see me.....the young ones seems to look up to me more...but still I'm the same old joker cousy of theirs... and hell yeah I made them laugh like mad! During the reunion dinner at my mother side grandparents' place... all the lil ones had a great fun laughing away with my insanity..my stupid jokes...there were happy tears and cramp tummies too because we laughed too hard! lol!
Then on the 2nd day of CNY, we had a big reunion dinner at my father's younger sister's place in Sungai Petani... it was also another fun reunion... most people didn't recognized me and thought that I've changed a lot... and yes in fact I've changed a lot... and too many.... a Yvonne or they call me Wen Wen... that wears skirts is an entirely suprising thing.... as I used to hate it! but I really do love my new skirt! I'll get more when I earn more bucks!
Old gang of cousiesssssss ! Yes indeed we've grown a lot! and many have gone separate ways... I've missed out on everyone's life since I moved to NZ...5 years! and yet we are very tight when we finally met again.... Ah boy wasn't there...Tutu wasn't there....so there were less fun...
Dad wanted a photo!
And yes he is very proud to have me back in Malaysia and so he insisted another photo! He's soooooo clingy now...
there u go... the masculine side of me...I was going..."YESS!!!" when my aunty gave us the permission to have our cousins over for sleepover!... it was fun indeed... we watch some stupid ghost thriller which made me screamed my head off ... all my cousiessss were shocked to see the "softer" side of me...lol
Third day of CNY! old friends get together!... It was so good to see Chu Chu (the one in white)!
we had lunch together at Old Town and went to KTV...
KTV with all my buddies!
CNY was pretty fun...but it was a lot more different than the past CNY as my lil brother wasn't there...
Tuesday, 19 February 2008
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Sending off! 19th Jan 2008 (NZ~Singapore~Malaysia)
Well after months of trying to ignore the fact that I was leaving the country for good...... I spent my last night sorting out the last bit of my packing...
piles of stuff sorted... "yes..no... yes..no...no...umm I don't think so... but... arghhh yes then.... ooooo wow it is still here yes " and there I was for the whole night.... Leanne came by and had a chat..and Sharon burned a disk full of our photos and past it to me.. and yes last night was just packing...packing ...packing and packing....
the next thing u know... it was already 5am...Jane texted me and so I told her I was still packing.... She hop over in her PJ and said "u don't have much time left... i'll go and put on my long pants and jacket... then i'll b right back with the rubbish bag... we'll chuck all ur things out... they only worth a few dollars"....
and this very best friend of mine turned up with a big rubbish bag and started going through my piles....she goes "r u keeping this? can i chuck this out?" Yes she helped me through the pile... my dear friend Jane... and the next minute... she was doing the last vaccuming...lol and i was washing the shower and the bathroom.....
Then Ken shows up... and helped to checked the cleanliness of my room.... and we started going through the details.. wipping the cupboards...tables... doors.. down to every detail..
I cannot thank both of u enough for helping me so much.... and Leanne and Eric who helped me to do the shipping!
My buddies and my best neighbours...
left to right ( Ken, me, Leanne, and Jane Jane)
the we head off to Christchurch international airport... my luggages were over load... over limit....and my pals took the load for me ...promised to post it to me... then we headed up to the cafe..the next minute... we were digging into our breakfast.......everyone was tired... and I was starting to feel bad that I leaving all these friends of mine...and NZ... a life that we all enjoy together...good old uni days
the support that I got from all the people that I met here was amazing... All I have to say is......I found myself here...thanks to all of u....
Ken, me and Jane!
The Girls! me, leanne, and Jane
I'm gonna miss u both a lot man!
nice pics huh ladies!!
Then aunty Paik and Uncle Mark showed up with only Drew and Ethan... Gemmie said she would pour buckets if she sees me leave and Shauny just thinks that we've said our goodbye...I know it was tough for everyone... and it was tough for me too...
we play around..snapped some photos...and chatted.. and finally I had to board my flight.......
I hugged everyone....except Ken..lol....(but we are buddies man!)... everyone had their words.... and it was the toughest to say goodbye to my dearest Aunty Paik.... she said..."....no more family from Malaysia in Christchurch...." and so I reply "you'll be fine Aunty Paik.... " of course we were tearing up... but decided to hold back our tears...
lil Drew promised that he'll visit me... and gave me our same old nice hug!
the warmth of eveyone's wishes and hugs was going straight into my heart! I was already missing everyone...
lil bub bubs was pretty cheeky though!.. he turned away when I was saying goodbye to him... then when i turn around.. he was giggling and waving.... and so I turned around to give him a peck on the face.......and that was the last goodbye in NZ........
Me and my Drew Drew... b4 I boarded my flight
Leanne thought that all my cousins are so cute... so she joined in!
Goodbye NZ............I will be back .... I promise I will! NZ is my second home! a place where I found myself and learns what defines me... I love u all in NZ....thanks for having me and giving me so much!
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